tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-32961505.post3785706374985129410..comments2023-10-12T05:54:29.149-04:00Comments on Cthulhu's Cafeteria: PanicTeppyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13006516622364025985noreply@blogger.comBlogger8125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-32961505.post-86963362357562576442010-01-09T01:48:31.207-05:002010-01-09T01:48:31.207-05:00This comment has been removed by a blog administrator.Anonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-32961505.post-54167433787129056802007-08-03T13:13:00.000-04:002007-08-03T13:13:00.000-04:00YES! I suppose that I must feel this way, too--I'm...YES! I suppose that I must feel this way, too--I'm actually doing better when I have more than enough sweets in-house. For instance, peanut butter cups make me weak in the knees, and I was buying them guiltily and devouring them. So I just stopped feeling guilty about it (a long process and it's actually taken me months) and now...I had a whole bag sitting around my apt and I ate hardly any of them--because I can ALWAYS GET MORE.<BR/><BR/>...But it still doesn't mean I know that that's true for all foods. I'm getting there!<BR/><BR/>(I've added your blog to my reader. And I don't think you can have too many awesome blogs about fat/fat acceptance/whatever.)Jessicahttps://www.blogger.com/profile/00762501444518361007noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-32961505.post-27771242661782142162007-08-03T11:41:00.000-04:002007-08-03T11:41:00.000-04:00I worry so much about the food disappearing for wh...<EM>I worry so much about the food disappearing for whatever reason that I just eat it all.</EM><BR/><BR/>I can think of all the whatever reasons. Like having 4 sisters and 2 brothers who overeat and all the food WILL be gone. Like having a father who filled his plate until it was overflowing, and we all had to do the same, because there was NEVER any for seconds with that kind of eating happening. Or like having the food taken away as punishment. <BR/><BR/>The food really <EM>could</EM> be gone. I used to hoard it. But then, this way I don't get ants. :)Deborahhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/05061313079120981794noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-32961505.post-39786511311610784852007-07-11T20:37:00.000-04:002007-07-11T20:37:00.000-04:00At first when the food arrives in ginormous quanti...At first when the food arrives in ginormous quantities, you have to expect that you're gonna eat some of it. Probably a lot of it. It took me two very large boxes of Whoppers before I got over them--there's a box in the kitchen that I actually forget about now. <BR/><BR/>After a while, just knowing you can have whatever whenever makes you start to pay attention to your actual hunger instead of just craving things you think you can't have. The forbidden foods lose their specialness when they're around all the time.<BR/><BR/>I was scared, too, but it's worked so much better than I thought it could!Anonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-32961505.post-22005411046924895532007-07-11T15:46:00.000-04:002007-07-11T15:46:00.000-04:00I worry so much about the food disappearing for wh...<I>I worry so much about the food disappearing for whatever reason that I just eat it all. </I><BR/><BR/>Ye gods, yes. But, like I said in my post, and like goodwithcheese said, maybe that worry can be alleviated by actually having large amounts of [insert "forbidden" food here] available to me, so that I DON'T have to worry about it disappearing.<BR/><BR/>Like, 3 cartons of ice cream. Or 5. Whatever it takes to make me realize that it's not going to be taken away.Teppyhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/13006516622364025985noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-32961505.post-6477633822136133592007-07-11T15:00:00.000-04:002007-07-11T15:00:00.000-04:00The issue here isn't that I'm eating a "forbidden"...<I>The issue here isn't that I'm eating a "forbidden" food; it's that I'm eating something — anything — when I don't actually want it. And the issue is also that I still view any food as "forbidden." Because THAT is exactly what drives me to eat it, and eat it all, as fast as I can. Because if I don't eat it right now now NOW, maybe it'll be taken away. Because it's BAD.</I><BR/><BR/>Oh. My. God. Do I know exactly what you mean. This entire post...that's me. I worry so much about the food disappearing for whatever reason that I just eat it all. If I don't, it's usually because I have verbally abused myself so badly that I spiral deep down into depression. Which just makes me eat something else.Anonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-32961505.post-68330535459645357152007-07-11T12:03:00.000-04:002007-07-11T12:03:00.000-04:00Cheetos are, I believe, proof of a benevolent deit...Cheetos are, I believe, proof of a benevolent deity. (Because, that orange color? CLEARLY supernatural.)<BR/><BR/><I>Once I surrounded myself with all the food I could dream of</I><BR/><BR/>See, that statement right there causes the panic to kick up, big time. The rational part of my brain understands why that's an effective approach, but my lizard brain is currently curled into a ball and keening, "But I'll eat it ALLLLLLLLLLLLL!!!!"<BR/><BR/>And that, of course, is exactly why I need to deal with it. <BR/><BR/><I>Have you read "When Women Stop Hating Their Bodies"?</I><BR/><BR/>I have not, but I just put it on hold at the library. Thanks for the recommendation. And for the support. Thanks TREMENDOUSLY (with Cheetos on top) for the support!Teppyhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/13006516622364025985noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-32961505.post-30027688662062015602007-07-10T19:31:00.000-04:002007-07-10T19:31:00.000-04:00You are me. Like, exactly, down to the secret eat...You are me. Like, exactly, down to the secret eating and unnatural affection for Cheetos.<BR/><BR/>Have you read "When Women Stop Hating Their Bodies"? That book helped me hugely in legalizing foods. <BR/><BR/>Once I surrounded myself with all the food I could dream of, I started realize it wasn't ever about the food to begin with. It was about my little inner self rebelling against the constant deprivation and meanness I was directing towards her.<BR/><BR/>You can do this. Whatever steps you decide to take, believe me that you can do this.Anonymousnoreply@blogger.com